Hello, On the days when I feel completely down and low in myself, I don't know what my mind is making me do, what is happening, or why I am having these unproductive days. couldn't think or make any effort. All the hopes and dreams are on hold. Knowing that I am capable of doing the things that I am not doing hurts the most. I know there is no serious or concerning issue in my life, but still, I am not allowing my heart to make any decisions or say that these days my heart is the one who is ruling over my mind. I know, I don't know.
I want to hug someone tight; I want to feel myself; I want to overcome these days. I am feeling alone.
Being alone is the phase, which some take as positive and some as negative. Everyone's situation and perspective are different. I am not arguing about this. Sometimes we are surrounded by hundreds of people, yet we still feel alone. Multiple thoughts juggle in the mind, creating a completely ‘what is happening’ situation.
And here's me again. I don't know why I am writing this, but I just feel like putting myself against words.
I have cool parents; they don't pressure me about my career, and this bothers me the most. I don't know what their expectations are, and to be honest, it's very difficult to be a single child. I know I am the center of their world, and for sure, they have many desires for me, but am I doing what they want? I know, I don't know.
I puzzled myself with multiple questions, and every question’s answer led to another question.
I am the person who usually believes in trusting the timing. I believe lights will guide me home and the universe will make my manifestation true, knowing my efforts are the only key to make all these things happen.
I don't know if ranting on my blog is good or bad. But I guess sometimes writing your emotions out can help you find a way out.
Sorry, and thank you for reading my rants and talks.
I hope you all will never judge me through my rants, and I know you judged it here. Anyway, see you all on another blog.
I know, I don't know
How to stop midnight overthinking,
How to deal with my heart and mind,
How to be strong during low days,
How to express my emotions,
And how to be myself.
-Himi
